Two finals down, three finals and two papers to go!
Yesterday I spent most of the day sleeping and writing my response for my second final. Actually I technically spent the whole day doing that... I was distracted a few times by my apartment-mates, but that was cool because I miss them now that we all have so much work to do. I finished that one at about 12:30 AM I want to say, so really I did spend all day on it... After that we finally watched Aladdin. (SHOUT OUT TO MY FRIEND WHO LEARNED THE WORDS TO "I Can Show You The World" SO WE COULD SING IT TOGETHER!) That has got to be the best study break ever. I wish I had more Disney movies, I only have one on DVD and it's Cinderella. They hardly ever release the good ones either so I'll have to be on the lookout for Robin Hood or something... The other night we watched The Rescuers Down Under and I am really feeling the Disney kick so there will need to be more of that.
Apart from that, I'm having a really good time taking my life slowly and getting to know people for real. It makes me feel so in control to know that there is no threat of anything happening that I'll regret. It's been really difficult the more I get to know people but I'm really trying and hopefully good will come from it. Last night there was a lot of honesty going on and it made me feel so much better and relieved. I just sometimes get scared that boys tell me what they think I want to hear and not how they really feel, but I think that's just me not being able to trust as much as I once did. I used to think everyone was good and honest to me; now I see the good in people but I know that not everyone is 100% honest. Not that I don't expect anyone to lie to me, but I hope they know they can tell me the truth. The truth makes everything real and when faced with a "my way or the highway" situation, it would be natural for people to lie if they don't think my way is the right way... That's the best I can do in this description because I'm really tired and brain fried from finals already, haha. This is only my experience and stuff so maybe you have a different situation and want to tell me differently? I'm open to anything at this point. My struggle to be a better person is going pretty well considering how I feel about the people in my life and I hope that it can continue. I'm still having trouble with wanting to have sleepovers and not knowing if this is effecting me negatively, but I think I put my finger on it last night: the danger in someone sleeping over is that you spend so much time with each other but not in getting to know each other, just with this closeness that comes from physically being close and not actually in knowing the other. This is something I'm working on and I think it's probably not a good idea to try and solve it by staying up all night talking because then I'm so tired I can't study for finals. I'm really glad I'm getting to know him though and finding his own identity separate from our friend's. It makes me feel better about everything. He has the good qualities that they share and some different also...clearly, because everyone is different...oh mann I am really tired haha. So for now, things are going well. I've still got to have a few conversations with people that I just haven't had the chance to have, but everything will get done. I was in church this morning and just really gave it up to God, so He can take care of that. Everything will work out the way He sees it working out.
Also in mass today, the homily started out talking about ROYGBIV and seeing light which I thought was ironic because he also spoke about finals and I felt like I could be studying for my Light & Photography final. Well, I should be borrowing a psych book soon to begin studying for my final so I should wrap this up.
Last funny thing that happened yesterday: We were listening to the VH and a song came on and he commented on how he liked a line even though it was repetitive and then I showed him my fb page in which that exact line was my status. It was pretty funny :-)
Stay calm during finals week and things will go well!! I'm working on crossing things off my list. I realized that I actually have two lists because I found one that I wrote over a year ago of a "Bucket List" and then there's the one I am making of stuff to do before graduating...or maybe I'll just post the list as things that I've done in the past 4 years that was "so college"... that way it isn't as much about crossing things off as it is about my college career. I'll post it the day of Commencement because I will probably be so busy that day that I wont have any other post anyway... okay well, time to go. No rain today, but I got to wear a skirt...now I'm listening to some great music haha
Peace&Love&PunkRock!
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