I think this is how love goes...check yes or no

Well we survived Hurricane Irene with only a half a casualty...one of our trees split in half that is. There was not enough rain for my taste but some areas got tons of water and flooding so I guess it's good we didn't get more.

Many places are still out of power so Gram's still living with us, but it's been fine. My retail job was canceled tonight since we have no power at the shoppes so here I am relaxing in my family room while Gram makes dinner (It smells awesome, Italian food for the third night in a row - I should live with Gram all the time). Thankfully her house is dry (no flooding in the basement-a big surprise) but the sink hole in front of her house is really bad. My other grandparents got water in the basement and are still braving the power outage. My aunt who lives down the shore just returned and got no flooding or damage at all. I think my family's been really blessed.

Today at work I had a quick day and at the end there was a cute encounter with the boy who pretty much loves the situation as much as I do, lol. Something about salaries and a coworker making a comment and us...just being silly. It is worth it all for that, haha...but anyway, many things have occurred to me recently and I've suddenly realized how nice it is to just be single and I found myself becoming comfortable with the idea of being single. After the wedding I felt like my friends had given me a challenge and I'm going to try my hardest to remain happily single for a while until something/someone worth it comes along and offers me something real. No more settling and no more moping about anything :-)

Peace&Love&Hurricanes!

I wish I was capable of falling in love. I wish I were able to let myself fall for someone completely and have them feel the same about me. I wish I could find the one I'm supposed to be with and really feel that strong connection. I wish I knew when, I wish I knew how, I wish it would be so much more obvious. But most of all, I wish I already knew and was already on my way...instead I'm just waiting and wondering why I let myself be alone and why I foolishly let people in that disappoint me.

Life doesn't always go as planned. I learned that a long time ago. There are opportunities and chances. You have to decide if it's worth taking or not.

Look, life doesn't always go the way you think it will. Things happen whether you want them to or not. You may not be looking for something, but that's when it could surprise you. Life's about the choices you make when you face something new and whether you put your whole self into it or walk away.

Love?

Some days I wonder if I'm ever going to find the right person for me. I've had so many chances that for whatever reason just couldn't work. I also have realized though that what I want isn't necessarily what I need. Maybe I need someone who doesn't want to see me 24/7 and isn't going to ask me to hang out every night. I thought I needed someone nearby to see all the time but I think I need someone to see once in a while. Maybe someone to randomly hang out with after work sometimes. But I also want someone to take me on dates, to actually go somewhere and do something. I want someone who's not afraid to take chances and someone I'm not afraid to take a chance on...but most of all I want to figure out how a relationship can work and be successful. Maybe I need to stop lying to everyone, especially myself. Maybe I need to stop trying to make everyone else happy and just see what makes me happy. But I also want to be able to slow down my feelings and not rush to an advanced stage in my relationship so that I can feel comfortable. I want to learn to date because I don't think I've ever actually had that part of a relationship. I think that's what's so frustrating, because schedules hardly ever allow for that. I sometimes wonder if I even know what I want...and I wonder if I'll know when I find it. Listening to my friend tell everyone that she knew on the first date that her fiance was the man she wanted to marry makes me wonder if I'll ever find that or if I am even capable of feeling that way. Again and again I ask myself what love is and again and again I'm left wondering if I'll ever know. Maybe I'm looking for perfect and perfect isn't out there. But should I settle for less? I'm not sure that's the solution either. It just...complicates things. But then, what do I even have to think about love for right now? Shouldn't I just try and date and see where that leads? Find out along the way what it is like to let go and trust someone? Maybe let myself fall in love? But why haven't I yet? What have I been doing all this time? Why do I feel like I don't want to waste any more time dating if it's not real? But I know I have to date in order to find what I'm looking for, it's just so frustrating. How come I have dated so many people and not found what I'm looking for yet when some of my friends found what they were looking for right away? Is it fair? Did I do something wrong? No, it's because I got exactly what I asked for, it's just that it always comes a little too late...So here I am, afraid to commit, afraid to be single, stuck somewhere in the middle forever. Maybe it will rain tomorrow.

<3 me

Day 100 - A picture of you smiling

last day!

Day 099 - A picture that was first on your facebook.

...

Day 098 - A picture of you and your friends out somewhere

...

Day 097 - A picture of something you no longer have

That's a tough one, lol

Day 096 - A picture of your favorite movie

...

Day 095 - A picture of you on a plane

...

Day 094 - A picture of you and your friends eating

umm why would I have a picture of my friends and I eating?

Day 093 - A picture of your favorite board game

today's post

Day 092 - A picture of your school

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Day 091 - A picture of you and your friends playing a game

Friday, July 15, 2011

Day 090 - A picture of you wearing your favorite color

Peace&Love&Green

Day 089 - A picture of you at a hotel

hmmm......... ;-)

Day 088 - A picture of your dream car

my silver Nissan Z convertible that I wanted when I looked for my first car. I think I fell in love with this particular car because it was the one on the floor, lol

Peace&Love&Z

Day 087 - A picture of someone you grew up with

Monday, July 11, 2011

For some reason I thought I posted yesterday...oops

Day 086 - A picture of someone who helps you with school

I already know who this will be, I just need to find a picture...

Day 085 - A picture of your favorite holiday

well I guess I should first decide what holiday this is...

Day 084 - A picture of a school project

...

Day 083 - A picture of you and a teammate

asap

fear

Look, I know you don't want to get hurt and you don't want to hurt me, but if you don't get hurt, you're not trying hard enough, you don't care enough or you've stopped caring. I may have broken a few hearts along the way, but it hurts me to see them hurt and that's what caring about something does to you. I may not know what I want yet, but I know that I'll do whatever I can to get it.

issues

i want too many things and i want to not want them. why is everything so complicated? On the one hand, I had consistency and predictability and gave it up. On the other hand I can attain stability and maybe be happy. On another relevant hand, this could all end in two weeks and I could be left to try and figure out my life...maybe I'm really just scared that there is nothing left or that I'll never find something perfect or that I have expectations about life and love that are way too high. But I do know that if this ends, it might be the first regret I have...
"they say it gets easier" "it gets different"

Day 082 - A picture of someone you love asleep

down the shore last year...love it

Peace&Love&Sleeping

Day 081 - A picture of you with a character

...

Day 080 - A picture of you and someone you love being silly

coming real soon. Happy 4th All!

Day 079 - A picture of you in the water

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Day 078 - A picture of you in the dark

:-) you cant see me...

Day 077 - A picture of you and friends making silly faces

silly faces...

Day 076 - A picture of you drinking something

lemonade slushie at the beach :-)

Peace&Love&Slushies

Day 075 - A picture of you receiving an award

Senior Banquet in Youth Group in HS

Peace&Love&YouthGroup
:-) Sometimes I miss it a lot

Day 074 - A picture taken professionally

Is it really only Tuesday?

FML

Day 073 - A picture of you somewhere warm

Beach! :-)

Peace&Love&Beach

Day 072 - A picture of you with unbelievable scenary

hmm...

Day 071 - A picture of you with people you work with

I'm kinda bummed I didn't have my camera last night since I went out with the people I work with, but I'm sure there will be a picture in the near future...

Day 070 - A picture of someone you don't go a day without talking to

Friday, June 24, 2011

My mom. It's really impossible for me not to talk to her, if it's not in person or on the phone it's via email or a note...it's nice and I love her :-)

Peace&Love&Family

Day 069 - A picture of a crazy night out

haha oh I need to find a picture of this...


on another note, I can't believe it's Thursday already!

Day 068 - A picture of you outside

hmm... this should be simple enough, but I have to find one first

Day 067 - A picture of you falling

While I may look completely stable in this picture, I was demonstrating how high I could kick my leg, which in turn caused me to lose balance and fall over. What a wonderful night though :-)

Peace&Love&TheIncredibles

Day 066 - A picture of you doing something childish

and here's to tonight!

PS why are there two #66's?

Day 066 - A picture of you in the air

Sunday, June 19, 2011


This was at a Conference in Chicago. It was awesome!

Peace&Love&RESOLVE

Day 065 - A picture of you at a park

I absolutely LOVE the park!!


This picture was taken a few years ago on my best friend's birthday :-)

Peace&Love&Swings!

Day 064 - A picture of you at work

This was the grand opening of my cubicle space! Haha, it was amusing. As you can see, we are hard workers :-P

But seriously, everyone deserves a little fun now and then...

Peace&Love&OfficeFun

PS my office had a great night tonight ;-)

Day 063 - A picture of luggage

Thursday, June 16, 2011

I really liked this bag and it's green so here ya go!

Peace&Love&Luggage

Day 062 - A picture of you on a ride

Ride at Hershey for our Senior Week trip :-)

Peace&Love&Rock&Roll

Day 061 - A picture of you in the fall

This was a few falls ago when I went to Vermont with my cousins and grandparents :-)

Peace&Love&Autumn

Day 060 - A picture of you at a sports game

This was for my dad's birthday. Fun game!

Peace&Love&Baseball

Day 059 - A picture of you at prom

I know it says a picture of me at prom, but this is taking prom pictures because there really is no great picture of me at prom.

Peace&Love&Prom

Day 058 - A picture of your hair all done

This was at my aunt's wedding a few years back :-)

Peace&Love&Hair

Day 057 - A picture of you in your backyard

This is from way back in my sophomore year of high school but I've always loved the picture that just seems to really capture me :-)

This is in my backyard back when we still had the trampoline. Oh how I miss it...

Peace&Love&Jumping

Day 056 - A picture of you all bundled up

Ironic since it was over 100 Degrees today, lol

Peace&Love&Cold?

Day 055 - A picture of you with a date

Wednesday, June 8, 2011


weird, I thought I posted yesterday...oh well :-)

Peace&Love&BeachDate

Day 054 - A picture of you on your last vacation

This was our vacation to MD last summer with the fam and cousins

Peace&Love&Trips!

Day 053 - A picture of you in a car

car!

Peace&Love&Road Trips!

Day 052 - A picture of you dressed up

Dressed up at a party this past winter :-)

Peace&Love&Dress-Up

Day 051 - A picture of you wearing sunglasses

Sunglasses!

Peace&Love&Sun

Day 050 - A picture of yourself

I suppose this is the halfway photo..."OH WE'RE HALFWAY THERE! OOOOOHHH LIVIN' ON A PRAYER.....!"
This is basically the outfit I was wearing when my uncle told me I looked like Cyndi Lauper. I got complimented on my "bow" by one of my co-workers. Although, he then told me my colors were like a bumble bee. I can't say I wasn't thinking the same thing when I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror though so I couldn't be upset. I think he also added that it was in a good way, whatever that means lol. At least he didn't say I looked like a banana. One of the sales reps told me I looked like a banana. Twice. And then another day told me I looked like an Easter egg. So I guess bumble bee is better than that? lol Anywho, work tonight so I had to change anyway. xoxo

Peace&Love&Bees

Day 049 - A picture of you and your best friend(s)

Oy, I hate having to pick and choose who my bests are...
Well I went figuring out stuff on fb and I am tagged in 402 pics with one of these lovely ladies and 274 with the other so I have determined my bests to be my Club 305 bests. And really, there is very little question there since we have been way close the way longest...



Peace&Love&Candy

Day 048 - A picture of you more than 10 years ago

So this is definitely over ten years ago. If you can't tell, I'm the only girl in this picture. If that still doesn't help, top right, wearing red, white, and blue. The reason for the X is that I told someone I was only going to use Roman Numerals from now on and I would do that for the numbers but I am a bit OCD and want them to all look uniform. But other than that I will make an effort to use them. Hopefully this will go smoother than my resolve in high school to no longer use the letter c and replace them with k's or s's depending. I suppose that would be like writing in Greek, but the phase had ended by the time I started taking Ancient Greek. Oh well, bye!

Peace&Love&RomanNumerals

Day 047 - A picture of your favorite animal

In case you haven't already guessed, my favorite animal is a frog :-) I love them!

Peace&Love&Frogs!

Day 046 - A picture that you edited

Monday May 30th, 2011

I've edited many a photo, so here's a good one...

Day 045 - A picture of your favorite cartoon character

Sunday May 29th, 2011

Well I thought this would be easy, but there are a lot of cool cartoon characters out there! Here is a favorite from my childhood that I still love :-)



Peace&Love&Animation

PS a little known fact is that I did my freshmen project on the cartooning system and had to create my own cartoon step by step. Looking back, I'm actually quite proud of it even though it was a pain in the neck project that wasn't even done any more after my year...

Day 044 - A picture that describes your life

Saturday May 28th, 2011

A photo that describes my life, this is gunna be a difficult one...
Okay, so here's a picture that describes who I am:

hyper, singing Bon Jovi on the top of my lungs, with friends, doing performance music stuff, wearing my cheerleading jacket, and all around ecstatic. Yeah, that pretty much describes it all...

Peace&Love&Music

Day 043 - A picture of you celebrating

I know, I know, I'm about 45 minutes late but this week's been hectic, cut me some slack! besides, I'm on vacation...

I should have gotten a celebration pic this week, but this will have to do for now, here some of us are celebrating parade day :-)



Peace&Love&Party

Day 041 - A picture of your favorite weather

rain!

Peace&Love&Rain

Day 042 - A picture of you listening to music

yessss! I was waiting for this day! PS I'm listening to music right now, so until I get this picture up...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4FdWI9Ny3qU



listening to music with my new headphones and enjoying pixi stix :-) so wonderful!

here's what I was listening to in the picture:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JywK_5bT8z0

Peace&Love&Music&Candy

Day 040 - A picture of your friends

This is a picture of some fun my friends and I were having at the lake and the names of most of the people I've been hanging out with this week :-)

While I do have to shout out to all my friends who are not here this week, this is a picture of some that are!

Peace&Love&Friendship

Day 039 - A picture of your favorite food

I decided that my favorite food is chicken! I like it a lot of ways, so this is my chicken both traditional style and buffalo from dinner tonight :-)

Peace&Love&Chicken

Day 038 - A picture of your favorite drink

Here's a picture of Flat Stanley enjoying my favorite drink...
Klee's Old Fashioned RootBeer

Peace&Love&RootBeer!

Day 037 - A picture taken at school

Hey we never took a picture in front of Houlihan last night!


Anyway, this is my picture on my grad school ID. It was taken at my grad school. I felt it was the most appropriate lol.

Also having the ID got me into Kildares free last night.

Peace&Love&Education

Day 036 - A picture of your pet

Well yesterday I got so caught up with everything going on that I forgot to post, but I don't have a pet so I am going to have to think of something else to put here...

Day 035 - A picture of your hometown

this will be coming soon

Day 034 - A picture of your favorite morning

Today was the perfect running around in the rain day and I admit, I did a little running in the rain. Mostly it was to my car, but either way, beautiful! I just wish I had better prepared before work like by bringing my boots so I could jump in puddles and the bottoms of my dress pants wouldn't be ruined but oh well. Then I changed and went back outside so that was enjoyable.

Now this picture was my absolute favorite morning and I'll tell you why right after you soak in the awesomeness of it...
...my mom, dad and I were at the beach two summers ago and one morning Mom and I woke up early to see the sunrise over the ocean. Even though we were looking slightly in the wrong direction to begin with, it was a truly beautiful morning and I got to enjoy quality time with my mom :-)

Peace&Love&Sunrise

Day 033 - A picture of somewhere you went today

the only place I went today was work...boring...

Peace&Love&Worrkkkk

Day 032 - A picture of what you did today

Today I played wii and dad and I found our new favorite game - flying an airplane over the resort island and shooting balloons :-)

Peace&Love&New Toys

Day 031 - A picture of food you made

So I woke up this morning and realized that I totally forgot to post last night! So here it is, and I'm sorry for the delay!

So for those of you who have been following my blog for a while now, you may remember this food that I made, but I don't make food too often...

Peace&Love&Food

Day 030 - A picture of someone you miss

"My uncle told me I looked like Cyndi Lauper tonight"
"Possibly because you just wanted to have fun"

Here are some awesome people that I really miss, most of whom I will see again really soon, but it's been awhile (almost a year for some)!

Peace&Love&People being too far away...

Day 029 - A picture that can always make you smile

This makes me smile because they are two of the best days in my friendship with my best friend. They were more relaxed and carefree days before so much happened but after we became so close.

Peace&Love&Friendship

Day 028 - A picture of something you're afraid of

One of my biggest fears is being alone in all aspects of the word.

Peace&Love&Togetherness

Day 027 - A picture of yourself and a family member

This is me and my cousin when he was visiting. My grandma couldn't get over the fact that we were both going out in ripped jeans and I said "take a picture" joking around and she made us wait while she got her camera, lol. Oh family...

Peace&Love&Family

Day 026 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

can't wait to start getting these posts up again...

Day 025 - A picture of your day

I have been so busy lately I've gotten backed up, but pretty soon I'll be able to go back and fix everything! My day today was so hectic and I didn't think to take pictures, but mostly I was getting prepared for my parents 25th anniversary tomorrow, so here is part of my gift to them:

I spent my entire afternoon and evening making it so I suppose it is a picture of my day...

Peace&Love&Happiness

Day 024 - A picture of something you wish you could change

I know I'm way behind but these questions...wth?

Day 023 - A picture of your favorite book

This is my favorite book that I've read recently so it seems like it would fit here. I am still on the look out for an all-time favorite, but maybe that will come in time... I am currently devouring books and I love it.

Peace&Love&Reading

Day 022 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

I wish I was better at exercising consistently and stuff, it just never seems to stick...

Peace&Love&Exercise


Week of Winners
Today is the birthday of the boy I took to formal last year. It's interesting how much things change in a year.

Animal Control?
I just witnesses something very strange. I was at the park swinging, as per my usual, and this guy. Drove up in an animal control unit van. At first I'm like" oh great, I'm at the park and there's a wild rabid animal running loose" but then I see the guy pull up to a parked township truck, get out of his van, open the back of the truck, and wheel out a lawn mower. Then the guy puts the lawn mower in his van and drives away. I was so shocked at what happened I didn't know what to do. Should I call the township? Was it a normal occurrence for this to happen? Like what would animal control need with a lawn mower? Or was he just posing as animal ccontrol? Sometimes I feel like I watch too mmany cop shows. I mean, maybe he was helping them out because of the lack of rabid animals in town...but what if he wasn't? What do I do?

Happy Cinque de May

No? Not the same thing? lol
Anyway, it's cinqo de mayo and I was thinking about what I did last year (hang out at the bar with some friends) and compared it to what I did this year (work at New York & Co) and got a little depressed. Oh well, it's not the end of the world.

So today I started talking to my friend again about a blog we were going to start together and we decided it would be good to start when her semester ends. I am going to begin with the design of it and I'll keep y'all updated on it.

In other news, I finished my semester today!

I thought this post would be more interesting, but all my interesting thoughts got lost between work and now. I'll update later if I think of anything else.

Peace&Love&Five/Five

Day 021 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

Sometimes I wish certain things wouldn't continue to come up in my life and this is one of them. I wish I could forget how I felt and what I went through, but the worst part is it wasn't all bad. Ohhh unrequited love haha
Just some Peace&Love today folks :-)