issues

i want too many things and i want to not want them. why is everything so complicated? On the one hand, I had consistency and predictability and gave it up. On the other hand I can attain stability and maybe be happy. On another relevant hand, this could all end in two weeks and I could be left to try and figure out my life...maybe I'm really just scared that there is nothing left or that I'll never find something perfect or that I have expectations about life and love that are way too high. But I do know that if this ends, it might be the first regret I have...
"they say it gets easier" "it gets different"